(Vol. 0, Issue #001) "When the Silence Spoke"

For years, I rehearsed every word before I ever said it out loud.
Every phone call felt like a battlefield I wasn’t built for — one wrong move and everything could explode. So I learned to speak in code, to tiptoe, to apologize for things I didn’t do.

But even perfect words can’t make broken ears listen.

There came a day when I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I remember sitting there, staring at the screen, hands trembling over the keyboard. I wrote. Deleted. Rewrote. Cried. Prayed to find the right balance between truth and kindness — between finally standing up for myself and not setting the world on fire.

When I hit “send,” my heart pounded so loud I could feel it in my throat.
It wasn’t anger that drove me. It was grief — the kind that builds up after a lifetime of swallowing your voice.

For the first time, I thought maybe — just maybe — they’d hear me.

But when the reply came, it wasn’t what I expected.
The words were sharp, twisting my intentions into accusations. Instead of understanding, there was blame. Instead of love, there was silence — the kind that doesn’t wait for peace but punishes it.

It shattered me.

I spent nights replaying every sentence, wondering if I’d gone too far or not far enough. But deep down, I knew: no version of my truth would have been acceptable. They weren’t ready to listen.

So I stopped trying to explain.

The silence stretched for days, then weeks. And yet… within that stillness, something shifted.
The voice that always whispered fear in my head — the one that told me I was the problem — started to lose its grip.

Without realizing it, I was hearing myself again.

The quiet wasn’t empty anymore. It was full — full of space, full of breath, full of possibility.
And even though it hurt, I knew something had changed forever.

Because silence had finally done what words never could.
It set me free...

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